I read a blog today about being totally liberated from everything in your life except yourself. I wondered what it would feel like to not have a job or have to go to school just to get by. I wondered what it would be like if I didn't have parents, family, friends, or a boss to answer to. If everything about me was totally free. Personally, the thought to me is a little scary. I don't think I would do well without having a job or school or daily routine for that matter. I love working. I really like my job right now, and although I haven't liked my jobs in the past, that does not mean that I never stopped liking to work. Working makes me feel good. I like being productive, I like being successful, I like feeling accomplished. I like having something to work towards - in other words, a paycheck. School is going to end soon for me (my heart and mind are saying both "YIKES!" and "YES!!!"). In a sense, I'm totally and completely ready to not have it in my life anymore. I can focus on my career. I can make my money. I can work more hours. But without it, it will feel weird. I'm the type of person that could never just "take a break from school" and get right back to it. I mean I took "a break from soccer" when I quit and now look where I'm at - NO WHERE, not even almost working out! Anyways, school has been such a huge part of my life that the thought of not having the routine there anymore is a little scary. I'm certain that once I get settled into whichever career path I chose first I won't miss it though.
Not having to answer to anyone but myself would be MAGICAL I think. When I move BACK OUT of my parents house after I graduate (which I can only hope and pray that I'll be able to afford for right now since I have SHIT SAVED UP), I will no longer have to deal with my parents. Not that they will no longer be apart of my life, they just won't be there day in, and day out. I must say the petty ass arguments with my mother will not be missed. The awkward silences with my Dad will not be missed. Not having to answer to a boss would be quite nice. . .being my own boss would be wonderful. I definitely have the initiative to get things done on my own so there would be no worry there. I'm not the procrastinating type either so things would get done in a timely manner. It would be quite nice to set my own rules and not have to abide by other peoples. I don't like the wondering feeling/worry of whether or not I'm in trouble when my manager calls me into his office and shuts his door. UGH I HATE THAT! I do not believe that I really have to answer to my friends. They have their expectations of me and if I fail those expectations they know that they should bring it up with me and I'll fix it as needed.
Therefore, liberation I don't think is completely for me. I think I would only HALF MAKE IT. lol.