Friday, January 29, 2010

The letter from when I donated

Dear Jody,

Thank you for your donation of $25.00 to support our 11th annual Pledges for Pets Telethon. Your gift will be used to help care for the more than 25,000 animals we receive each year as well as to provide valuable services to the pets and people of our community.

Now that you have donated, I hope you will tune in on Sunday, January 25! You will be able to take a shelter tour, get valuable pet care information, and meet homeless pets looking for new families—all without leaving home!

Thank you, again, for your kindness.


Robert D. Rohde

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Animal Shelters

Some of you might not know that I adopted Maddoxx. He is such an amazing part of my life and I'm so incredibly happy to have him. I spent money on him that I did not have just to get him and I've never been more happier with something in my life. I adotpted him from a NO KILL SHELTER which is why I bring your attention to this.

The Denver Dumb Friends League is an animal shelter in Denver, CO. It serves all kinds of animals, both big and small. Although this is not the place that I got Maddoxx from I definitely support it in any way I can because they have done so much not only for the animals in Colorado, but for animals NATION WIDE! They took in animals from California, Arizona, from Katrina and MORE! The animals at the shelter and the animals that may end up in the shelter, as well as the individuals who work and volunteer for the shelter need help!

They are accepting donations through an event that they are holding today. You can go to this website and donate any amount that you like! Please do so! Animal shelters are WAY BETTER than the breeding homes and stores that subject animals to cruelty and maltreatment. If you do anything to help support animals in any kind of way, make it this!

Thanks for your time. I'm typically not the type of person to blog about this kind of stuff but this is important to me because Maddoxx was saved through the shelter system and he has added so much happiness to my life that I can't thank them enough.

go do it!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

My boss

I need to remind myself that today I am suppose to ask my boss for a raise. . .that I'm suppose to get starting tomorrow. That means I will be getting one more dollar! Woop Woop! Nice because I am going to be working thirty five hour weeks now and going to classes. Hopefully, I will have an easier time with saving some money especially now since all I have to pay is for my phone bill and then everything that I absolutely need to spend money on will be taken care of for the time being.

Jason noticed today that I'm a little more anxious now at work. He asked how school was going and I explained to him that I was pretty stressed out about it especially because of the experiment thing. It was just nice to know that he noticed that I'm a little stressed out, not that he was really going to do anything about it though lol.

I am very busy today. We placed on ad for employment on craigslist and have been getting phone calls nonstop. It's quite aggravating really because I have been here for five hours already and have had a million phone calls. Only a couple of people have come in to apply though and out of those only two people have been what we are looking for. It's clean up time in our field employees department. We desperately need to get rid of the retards, the stinky ones, and more!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Stressed the eff out

My research project ideas are due today. I have settled on these three questions. Does age or gender effect your chances of being successful in a game of poker? Does learning the statistics of gambling increase the likelihood of being successful in a game of poker? and finally, Does different areas of the brain activate for different genders or age groups when an individual is judging attractiveness. I'm extremely stressed out about these ideas because I'm not sure I'm presenting them with everyhthing that my teacher is asking for.

For each idea we have to provide the question, the hypothesis, the operational definitions of the variables, independent and dependent, (unless its correlational) and the strenths and weaknesses of our ideas. For the two gambling ideas which are the ideas I'm most interested in and really want to do I am having a hard time operationally defining the variables. Clearly age and gender are easy, but the dependent variable of success is extremely difficult. The operational defintion must by accepted and understood by the scientific audience and because I have found no research that studies success in gambling I have not found any certain measure that I can use in my study. I told my teacher about my problem today. She told me to look more in addiction to gambling but I still found nothing. She did tell me to submit and see what we can do with it so I'm guessing that when she sees the idea a little bit better then maybe she will have an idea of what I can do.

This class is not starting off on a good foot. Thanks to the first part of the class that I had with the worst freaking teacher ever, I'm freaking out! If I don't graduate on time because of this I'm going to be absolutely DEVASTATED!!!!

Today is a bad day. I'm highly stressed out and aggravated. Usually my coping strategies are a lot better but I think the fact that I have a pounding headache is not helping. My bed calls my name but I know damn well I need to be spending my night working on this experiment idea and NOT catching up on the sleep that I don't get in the mornings because of how early I have to get up for work/class. GOOD FUCKING NIGHT.

Sunday, January 24, 2010


Just out of curiosity because my best friend Tina works two full time jobs and has no medical insurance. She hurt her knee two weeks ago playing soccer and she still can't put weight on it and it's still really bruised. I don't understand has she has two full time jobs and does not have insurance. She said she doesn't have any with the YMCA because she works for so many different departments. I don't get that. You still work for them so they should still offer you insurance. . .the different departments might have different ones but then you can just pick which one is best for you. I think she is just being naive about the whole thing so can anyone tell me what she should do. She is just being stupid because she thinks spending money on her health is not worth it apparently. I'm just like, okay bitch when you can't fucking walk in a while because of that knee don't fucking come crying to me about that shit.

Anyone know anything?

My sunday funday

I failed the whole idea of not drinking last night to help improve my stomach functions (my stomach has been feeling a lot better, I think it was a result of bad food). I didn't drink much but I did wake up this morning with a pounding headache and a blank in my mind from walking into Mark's apartment and getting in bed. I'm not sure what went on or what I said during that part of the night but I'm fairly certain it was not a result of blacking out from alcohol but a combo of extreme exhaustion and a small effect of alcohol lol. Despite my splitting headache I have been quite productive today. I did some homework so I'm ahead in my classes for now. I would really like to start the papers that I have to write and the presentation that I need to do now so that I can just focus on the experiment and the paper for the experiment later on and not everything at once. I'll be doing my research on the topics I want to cover and stuff like that later.

I bought some new clothes yesterday. I have been in a desperate desire for a long sleeve mini dress and some knee high socks. I got both of those items from American Apparel and I added on a really cute, really sexy one piece thong thing from American Apparell as well.

Heres the dress and thigh high socks

Here's the top that I paired with a grey skirt and the thigh high socks with a little peep of my tattoo:

I'm excited to wear the dress with the over the knees Mark got me for XMAS.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

First Credit Card

So. . .I am looking into buying a new car when I graduate. I am specifically interested in getting a Nissan Exterra or Pathfinder because I need a 4 wheel drive vehicle for the winter and those have good gas mileage and lifetimes. However, as I was talking with my ma last night, she helped me realize that I have ABSOLUTELY NO established credit to be able to purchase a car, let alone the money but that's not important right now. So I have decided that I am being forced into getting a credit card because no one in my family will be able to be a cosigner for me and I don't want to have to pay for that anyways. My mom suggested getting a Capital One Card because she said that what you do is send them say $500 dollars for example and that sets your maximum spending amount. Each time you spend money on that card you have to pay that amount back in order to keep your balance on the card in order. I'm actually getting ready to do my research and ensure that this is how it really works but for the most part I will be getting my first credit card. I'm happy to say that I have gone 22 years without one and have not racked up any debt besides school loans, unlike a lot of the people I know. I'm scared of this thing. It's a big commitment and it will take a lot of convincing to get me to actually agree to getting this thing. I don't trust myself enough and I also am tied to it. Committing to something I'm uncertain of, which is anything that requires a commitment, is definitely a recurring theme within my life story. I cry every time I sign a fucking phone contract I mean shit. This is something that I have to do and I just have to be diligent about only using it sparingly and smartly. I can't fuck myself over by going over the top and not making the payments and shit like that. Although I've applied for credit cards in the past, I never got approved so I didn't have anything to worry about so we'll see if Capital One even approves me. Wish me luck anyways.

On a side note, I didn't want to go anywhere this weekend or do anything but then I realized I have shit to do. I have to go get my oil changed and my prescription filled. I didn't want to spend money really either but I really want this dress and this one piece thong thing from American Apparel so I think I'm going to treat myself.

I decided on my third idea for my research experiment. The final idea I'm going to submit is Does learning the statistics of gambling increase the chances or change the behavior of the gambler. It should be a fun thing to look at it.

I'm really sick and tired of the Tumblr, other blog, site that I'm on. It has so many malfunctions and errors and it's constantly ridiculously slow. It's quite aggravating because I really like the site and stuff but in general it is truly shitty. =[

I'm off to do my research and prepare to watch Grey's Anatomy which starts in 15 minutes! YAYAYYYAY

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Research Experiment Ideas - Again

I know this might get old. But this is helping me. If you have any suggestions please feel free to add them.

What if I did something that dealt with attractiveness. Like, if I could explore what areas of the brain are activated when a person is evaluating the attractiveness of another individual. My question would be Are there certain areas within the brain that are activated when a person is judging the attractiveness of another individual? Do different areas of the brain activate depending on gender? Do different areas of the brain activate depending on age? My hypothesis would be that there are areas within the brain that activate while a person is judging the attractiveness of the brain. There are not different areas of the brain that activate when a man or woman is judging the attractiveness or when an older individual or younger individual is doing the judging. My independent variables would be gender and age. My dependent variables would be the measure of the brain activity and the level of attractiveness. Operationally defined, level of attractiveness would be measure on a one to ten scale, with one being the lowest rating of attractiveness and 10 being the highest rate of attractiveness. Strengths - there is a lot of research on this topic. The proper equipment is available. I could just use pictures of both famous and non-famous individuals. Weaknesses - there is a lot of already completed research on this study. Would I be able to map out the areas of the brain properly? How in-depth do I need to go on the mapping of the areas. Would I be able to use the machines properly.

I'm going to use this one and see what my teacher says.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

First day of Last Semester

Today was my first day of the last semester of college for me. It was a good day. I like both of my on campus teachers. Those classes I think are going to be great, challenging classes. History and Systems is going to make me think and I'm definitely going to be learning a lot. The tests might be kind of hard though. It's all written so they will be made up of short answer and essays - which I am a good writer so I'm not really complaining, but they are just tedious. Research Methods II is the class I'll be conducting my own experiment in. I know I posted my idea of for my experiment, however I found out today that I will have to come up with two more ideas to turn in to my teacher before she helps me narrow down which one I'm actually going to be doing. I'll be sure to update with the other two ideas and of course which one I finally decide to do, definitely seeing as though I got a little interest in how that turns out. It made me very happy to see someone who was interested in what was going on in my life [=. I'm basically going to be MARRIED to this damn experiment so I really am hoping and praying that I can stumble my ass through this thing and come out with a good grade. I think I can conduct the research part of it, the writing part may be the hardest part for me because of the poor teaching I got in the first part of this class. My teacher did say we would be spending class time on how to write each section of the paper though so THANK GOD she is helping us with that or I'd be totally fucked! My other two classes are online. I had one teacher last semester I think online as well and the class assignments and stuff are pretty similar to what I just had last semester in that class so that shouldn't be too hard. The other class seems easy as pie really. I just have to make sure I do the readings, answer questions on the readings, and do the quizzes. I don't have to write a paper for that class either because it's a Criminal Justice class and not psych and the psych department REQUIRES at least one paper to be written in each class. i think that's a good but also STUPID AS HELL policy but oh well what does my little student opinion matter right? My books are only going to cost my like around $200.00 so that's not too bad. I have to pay for them right now and my parents will pay my back later because they don't have the money for it right now. (The deal with all three of their kids was if we went to school they would pay for the books).

Mark and I decided to do a diet together. We are going to do the ABS Diet. He has done it before and he really liked it. So far, he has been easing his way into it again lately and he has already lost six pounds so congratulations to him!! We are going to sit down this weekend and discuss costs, work out plans, and how we are going to do the meals. I think it's a great idea for the two of us to do it together because my mom refuses to do it with me and I definitely believe in motivational partners when dieting and working out. I'm hoping that I can find somewhere that I can get a pool membership too for cheap so that I can incorporate swimming into my work out because I really enjoy swimming despite how bad I am at it.

I'm pretty tired and I have to open the office again tomorrow. Good night [=

Monday, January 18, 2010

Classes start Tomorrow

Two online classes and two on campus classes. My FINAL SEMESTER as a college student. Hopefully, this shit goes by smoothly and quickly. I've been getting like close to forty hours a week these past couple of weeks so although the paycheck is going to be very nice, it will also be nice to switch up my schedule and have something else to do other then just sit up in this office and go home. I enjoy learning so I'm looking forward to smashing this semester.

I've been having a lot of stomach problems lately. I'm not sure if it's my diet or from drinking or not getting enough sleep or what. I have this feeling of being constantly full and whenever I go to eat, even though I was hungry a little bit, as soon as I start I'm completely full. I try to shove the food down my throat but it only makes my stomach start swelling up and feeling all bloated. I'm not sure what's going on here so I'm quitting soda, beer, and horrible foods for a while. Hopefully it works out. I have to start a new dosage of thyroid meds soon too, like as soon as I take my ass to Wal-Mart and get the prescription refilled. I'm also wondering if it's this resturant that Mark and I always eat at called Dozens. I was pretty hungry before going there on Sunday morning and then as soon as I ordered my food I did not want to eat anything. I wasn't hung over yesterday either, in fact I haven't been hung over at all when my stomach has been acting up like this. I'm not sure if I have a bug that's lasted me a couple weeks or what. =[

Maddoxx has been really bad lately. When Mark and I hang out on the weekends we usually go out to eat and just leave him in the car. Well, Saturday I tried to put my food in a spot in the car where he couldn't reach it but I didn't really realize that I put it in a spot that was too accessible for him even though he was in his seatbelt. So he ate ALL of my chicken fried steak w gravy and potatoes left overs. Then, Sunday I left the box of food on the floor board in the front seat and he fucking HOUDINI'D out of his seat belt and ate some of it. Mark was pissed! Which I understand, he fucked his car up twice and both meals Mark had paid for. =[. NO MORE HUMAN FOOD FOR HIM EVER!

I'm bored. BYE

Friday, January 15, 2010

Work Rant

This fucking whore calls my office every fucking day and she is incredibly fucking rude. She is looking for some guy that use to work for us, who never worked in the office just as a guard. She wants his phone number and all this shit and I keep telling her he don't work for us and that I can't give out any of his information. She still keeps giving me her number and demanding that I call him and pass on the number.

NO YOU DUMB FUCKING BITCH. That's not my mother fucking job. Clearly, your job is to get a hold of him and you suck at it. You're done calling my office looking for someone to get ahold of him because that's not our responsibility. It's yours and it's not our fault if you can't do it. I'm not going to take it upon myself to help someone who is obnoxious, rude, and annoying as fuck.

Call my office one more time. Dare ya.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Felony Charges for Animal Abuse

I'm an avid animal lover. I was watching the news this evening and they touched on the story of Buddy the German Shepherd dog that was dragged outside of the vehicle of his owner or individual that stole him from the back of another vehicle. Buddy's story is FAR TOO SAD for me to read. It infuriates and saddens me to NO END that people are truly that careless, wreck-less, and fucking ignorant. The story from tonight just discussed how people on Facebook (people around the world) are working to bring animal abuse to the attention of lawmakers and increase the misdemeanor charges that people face now up to felony charges, even on the first one. I'm not sure if this law is nation wide or only state wide but it also discussed Westey's Law. This law states that a second charge of animal abuse can be pumped up to a felony offense, however individuals who are abusing animals for the first time skate by with really only a slap on the wrist and a simple fine. I definitely feel this is something that is extremely important for our lawmakers to take into consideration. I definitely believe that those who get by with only misdemeanor charges have it easy and they definitely aren't going to learn. There are some individuals who might make the change however, I don't think the misdemeanor offense is quite enough for the majority of these people. I see far too many cases, I mean shit, they have SEVERAL DIFFERENT SHOWS on the Animal Channel about these incidences alone and honestly I watch them but if they weren't on I'd be so much happier.

I also believe the law for felony charges and misdemeanor charges should include other requirements for animal ownership. I think that individuals who are trying to get an animal, no matter if it's a cat, a dog, or even a fish, the individual should have to take a class on how to take care of the animal. I think people need to learn what it actually takes to raise an animal. It's not a simple as just bringing it home and letting it roam around the house and giving it food when convenient. People have to demonstrate knowledge the types of food the animal should be eating, the types of toys, how the animal interacts with new people, children, and other animals. What it takes cost wise to own the animal is important as well. It's not fair to make an animal suffer in pain or whatever just because they can't afford to take it the doctor. People also need to be taught that there are resources available to them if they can no longer afford the animal or take care of it. I'm sure there are plenty of individuals who would be willing to teach this class (me for one) and it's something that can be paid for by the future owner of the animal. They have to pay to get their new animal so in order to receive him they have to complete the class and have a full understanding of what it is going to take to keep this animal and what happens if they fail to do it. I think this class idea and new law is fully capable of working out and I definitely think it would make a difference in our society.

What do you think?

Fucking car.

I don't know what I'm going to do with this piece of shit 1993 Toyota Corolla that I have. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE this car to death. It's my transformer, aka deathbot. However, it's requiring me to throw money at it like a desperate hooker.


Yesterday, my car wouldn't start for work so I had to get a ride to and from work from Mark. Thanks to my darling for doing so. Then when I got back to his apartment it still wouldn't start so clearly I had to replace the battery. Mark was again an amazing gentleman and completed this task for me. I was so AGGRAVATED and SO TIRED! I definitely was not being as nice as I could have been lol. This morning the car starts up just fine. No problems. When I get to work however, I tried to lock my doors with my automatic lock system. Oh surprise! Doesn't work! I have been experiencing some problems with my locks lately so I guess I should have expected the automatic lock system to go out at some point in time. Like for example, I can't unlock my driver side door from the outside. I have to walk over to the passenger side and do it from there. A while ago though, my passenger side door locks also broke and I wasn't able to get into my car AT ALL if I didn't just leave the bitch unlocked. I toed the line with that for a while and then finally the passenger side door lock randomly started working again. On top of this nonsense, the new cd player that I got for my birthday just over a year ago in my car is no longer working. It's not reading or playing my cd's. =[

WTF YOU BASTARD CHILD CUNTADACTYL WHORE!!! Stop trying to drain my bank account when I'm trying to prepare to sale you! I think she senses that I have to get rid of her and she's putting up a fight lol. You little bitch, mama loves you!

I was exhausted last night so no book report yet. I have started the next book in the series though. I'm excited to see where the story goes.

Monday, January 11, 2010

I was going to. . .

I was going to do the "book report" on Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West today, however, I was in a rush this morning because I knew my car wasn't going to start and that Mark and I would have to jump start it. So, anyways, long story short. . .I left the book at Mark's on accident. I will get around to it later though.

My car. . .the battery has been getting too cold is this ridiculously cold weather that Colorado has been experiencing. Needless to say this weather has put my battery to shit and I think I am going to have to replace the piece of shit. It really sucks that I'm no having to invest all this money into a car that I want to be selling or trading in for a new one in May. I'm considering just buying a refurbished battery and making do with that. I'm thinking that it will cost me like 30.00 for one of these versus a brand new at 60 plus. =[ STOP DIGGING IN MY POCKET BOOK BITCHES! Mama ain't going to have money for SHIT when she graduates. So much for this saving concept. I was doing really well with my writing down everything that I spend. I think I am just having a lazy spell for the time being plus I keep on getting medical bills for doctor's appointments that I had a while ago and they're pissing me off so I refuse to have to deal with anything with money for the time being. I need my own personal banker. That would be fantastic.

I got excited today because I realized that I'll be getting my left over scholarship money soon! [= yay that can go into the savings account. Tax season is almost here as well so hopefully when I do my taxes I'll get a BIG ASS REFUND! However, that's not for months so I need to check my futuristic outlook on that.

I hope yall are having a good day. Mark and I got drunk last night instead of going to the strip club as planned and I then on top of that I got zero sleep for some stupid ass reason so I felt pretty shitty today. I ate a dominos parmesean chicken sandwich for lunch and it was fucktastic. You should try one! Until later, meaning after I go force a new couch onto Mark, lol.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Research Experiment Update

I decided what I'm going to do my research experiment on. I will be examining whether or not age and gender affect your successfulness in a game of poker. I wonder if being older or being of a certain age increases the likelihood of playing a successful game of poker. I'm not measuring success on who win's the game as a whole, but by how many hands you win throughout the game. We'll see how it goes. I'm sure there will be many updates through out the semester about this experiment and the class I'm doing it for.

PSH. . .I want to be famous too + Tattooing Children

I want a famous blog. How do I get on that kind of status? Don't you readers tell all your followers and friends about me?! (hahah psh yea fuckin right). Anyways, I kind of do what a blog that people have favorite-d and come to everyday for their every day update on not only what is going on in my life, but about new fashions, new news, and more. Now that I've made a return to this site, a more successful return where I'm actually blogging every day, I need to find stuff to blog about. It shouldn't be that hard. I'd like to know what ya'll would like to discuss too so feel free to throw out suggestions. I'd be happy to do some research on any topic just for you.

Moving on. I've recently been hearing a story on the radio about a family who is tattooing their minor children with a home made tattooing system. The children are 10 years old, 2 11 year olds, 12 years old , and a 15 and 17 year old. The parents tattooed a black cross on their hands. I know one of the children got Mom and Dad tattooed along with the cross. A sharpened guitar string was used as the needle. Illegal tattooing, cruelty to children, and reckless conduct are what the two parents are being charged with. The parents do not believe they did anything wrong. They feel strongly that they think the whole situation has been completely blown out of proportion. They feel that they did not put their children into any kind of serious danger and that the children wanted them. The parents have tattooed themselves with the same gun, I'm sure around the children. These are the type of people that the city/state should be SNATCHING UP INTO THEIR HANDS FOR CUSTODY! The children come from separate marriages so they definitely need to be placed in to the custody of more capable hands, either the other parents or the state, and removed from these two morons. I'm not a big proponent of taking children away from their parents, throwing them into an orphanage and then hoping for the best with, but in this case there's not much else that you can do, I can't imagine why the parents would think that just because the children wanted a tattoo that it was okay for them to tattoo them. I don't care what the parents do to themselves, however it's not okay to succumb to children's desires for something like this, something so life altering and permanent. Apparently, it never occurred to them that the children may be denied things in their life as a result of having a tattoo, especially in such a visible area. I wish the parents were being charged with something more serious, however I don't even know if such charges exist. The whole gig was up when the mother of one the children discovered the tattoo on one of the children. She took it immediately to the police. Clearly, both sets of parents were not involved in the decision making process here of whether the children should or shouldn't be tattooed. Imagine coming to pick up your children from your babies daddy's house and finding that shit out. I would be SO FUCKING FURIOUS I'd beat the life out both of them. I'm also disgusted by the fact that they've been using the same sharpened down guitar string on themselves and each child. HOW FUCKING INCREDIBLY UNSANITARY. I wouldn't be surprised to see filthy living conditions in their home as well. Just disgusting, pathetic, and insanely stupid.

What do you think about this story? I tried to upload a video but blogger wouldn't let me so here's a link to the partial CNN video.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West

For Christmas, I asked for a three book series it's called Wicked and the first book is the Life and Time of the Wicked Witch of the West. I'm not quite done with the book but I love it. The story is set in OZ and of course it explores the life of the Wicked Witch of the West. The book toes the line of deceny and indeceny in the beginning but leaves you curious. It explores the political turmoil that was going on through out the OZ land before Dorothy came through with her crushing house. It explains from Elphaba's (the wicked witch of the west) point view everything that happened as a result of Dorothy killing Elphaba's sister the Wicked Witch of the East. I've only just gotten to the point of where Dorothy has arrived and the wicked witch of the west is chasing after her for the ruby slippers. I'm excited to read on into the series. I should be done with this first book this weekend or early sometime next week and will do a full review then.

Definitely recommend it as a must read.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Working Out in a Small Place

Someone I follow on tumblr posted a link to this article about working out in small places. I'm really excited about it because this is EXACTLY what I need in order to work out at home successfully.

Here's the link if you are interested.

When I try it out I'll let you know how it goes!

Research Experiment Brainstorming

So this semester, my final semester in college, I have to take a class that requires me to conduct my own research experiment/study. This is just an opportunity for me to brain storm. I may come back later and add onto it but we'll see.

Conformity - I'm sure a lot of students have already done this one but it doesn't seem too difficult. Quesetions could be Does age affect conformity? As participants get older the level of conformity declines? Does gender affect conformity? Does an all male group conform more than an all female group? If the group has more male participants are the females more likely to conform or the other way around? What type of situations lead to conformity? Seeing movie or music stars doing something? Seeing friends doing something? Seeing parents or family members doing something? Seeing teachers or other authority figures doing something? Reading about it in a magazine, book, newspaper? Seeing it online? What's the thought process behind conforming? When an indidividual is in the proccess of conforming what thoughts are going through their minds? Do individuals from lower socioeconomic statuses conform more than middle or upple class individuals? What race conforms the most and what influences their conformity the most - muscic, books, television, games, internet? So far, I'm quite interested in what race conforms the most and what had the most influence on the conforming. I would use a variety of sources like books, magazines, music, television, movies, the internet, friends, family, authority figures presenting different "cool" or "uncool" activities and trends and see what race is more likely to conform and which source is more likely to be used as a way to conform.

*****HERE'S MY DISCLAIMER!!!**** My hypothesis might sound racist or prejudice or discriminatory. IT IS NOT MEANT TO BE IN ANY KIND OF WAY. If you do not agree with me SO BE IT! This is my research experiment, my idea. If you don't like it take your fucking ass somewhere else. Thanks!

Hypothesis: The minority races - African-American, Mexican-American, Latin-American, Asian-American, etc will be more likely to conform. The sources that will be more likely to be used will be music, television, movies, and internet NOT NECESSARILY IN THAT ORDER. I think I'm not going to use parents, famiy, friends, or authority figures.

The procedure is going to be the tricky part. I will use ads seen online and on tv that relate to many different topics like drugs, alcohol, wearing fur, clothing trends, music preferences, movie preferences, Uhm basically I think I will just have my group of participants sitting in a room in a circle. I will present them all a picture for example of a movie star posing naked for an ad saying that they'd rather go naked than wear fur. I would then have them rate certain items on the picture like effectiveness of the ad, whether or not the ad makes them want to "go naked rather than wear fur", whether they like the star, whether or not they think the star is hot. I will then ask the participants to respond outloud whether or not they would do what the ad says...I want to ensure that all participants hear everyones answer so that they can feel the pressure of saying yes when everyone when else says no.

Fuck this is hard. I don't think that is going to work. I think I might need to slim down my topic. Like the different types of techniques that advertisers use to sell or combat the use of drugs and alcohol. I would have different groups of participants view different types of advertising and then I would ask questions like did these techniques make you want to do drugs? Did they convince you to not do drugs? Did they help you in facing a drug or alcohol problem? Whether or not they think the technique is affective for anyone they know that has a drug or alcohol problem? Maybe group a could get a series of movies and music that shows the depiction of drugs and alcohol in a good light and group b gets a series of ads and movies and music that show drugs and alcohol in a bad light. I like this idea because I think that drug and alcohol ads these days are ineffective. I would really like to explore these ads in younger like high school middle school age children but I don't believe I'm allowed to so I'd just use freshmen and sophmores versus seniors and juniors I guess. Hopefully I could get a good enough age range on the two upper levels.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I forgot to mention

In true "valued manager" fashion I was presented with MY VERY OWN KEY to the office.

I think it only important because my title is OFFICE MANAGER. I OWN THAT BITCH!



I read a blog today about being totally liberated from everything in your life except yourself. I wondered what it would feel like to not have a job or have to go to school just to get by. I wondered what it would be like if I didn't have parents, family, friends, or a boss to answer to. If everything about me was totally free. Personally, the thought to me is a little scary. I don't think I would do well without having a job or school or daily routine for that matter. I love working. I really like my job right now, and although I haven't liked my jobs in the past, that does not mean that I never stopped liking to work. Working makes me feel good. I like being productive, I like being successful, I like feeling accomplished. I like having something to work towards - in other words, a paycheck. School is going to end soon for me (my heart and mind are saying both "YIKES!" and "YES!!!"). In a sense, I'm totally and completely ready to not have it in my life anymore. I can focus on my career. I can make my money. I can work more hours. But without it, it will feel weird. I'm the type of person that could never just "take a break from school" and get right back to it. I mean I took "a break from soccer" when I quit and now look where I'm at - NO WHERE, not even almost working out! Anyways, school has been such a huge part of my life that the thought of not having the routine there anymore is a little scary. I'm certain that once I get settled into whichever career path I chose first I won't miss it though.

Not having to answer to anyone but myself would be MAGICAL I think. When I move BACK OUT of my parents house after I graduate (which I can only hope and pray that I'll be able to afford for right now since I have SHIT SAVED UP), I will no longer have to deal with my parents. Not that they will no longer be apart of my life, they just won't be there day in, and day out. I must say the petty ass arguments with my mother will not be missed. The awkward silences with my Dad will not be missed. Not having to answer to a boss would be quite nice. . .being my own boss would be wonderful. I definitely have the initiative to get things done on my own so there would be no worry there. I'm not the procrastinating type either so things would get done in a timely manner. It would be quite nice to set my own rules and not have to abide by other peoples. I don't like the wondering feeling/worry of whether or not I'm in trouble when my manager calls me into his office and shuts his door. UGH I HATE THAT! I do not believe that I really have to answer to my friends. They have their expectations of me and if I fail those expectations they know that they should bring it up with me and I'll fix it as needed.

Therefore, liberation I don't think is completely for me. I think I would only HALF MAKE IT. lol.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Important Stuff


Then come back and read this -

This article made my jaw hit the floor. I have been a big proponent of a united health care system since I saw Michael Moore's movie ( the title of the movie escapes me at this point in time). A lot of people have heard my desire for this type of health care system and all they say to me is that I haven't done all my research and I don't know everything that is going to change. Despite what they think, I did do my research. MONTHS AGO! I know that taxes are going to increase, but I don't think that matters to me. I'd rather a certain percent come directly out of my paycheck for my health then me having to pay a fucking FORTUNE just to ensure that I'm healthy when I leave the hospital. Anyways, this post is not about my beliefs. I just wanted to point out the differences in the American stories versus the European stories. The European stories just sound SO MUCH BETTER TO ME. Honest to God, the stories I've heard of the health care in Europe have convinced me ALONE to move there. I definitely want to move there. I will be conducting my own research and stuff on what it would be like to live there and how to go about doing so.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

It's time

Mark started his diet and work out. He's doing the ab diet which worked out for him really well before so that's really good for him. I wish I could be saying that I was doing the same thing but not quite yet. I'm thinking about trying his diet out for women though because it'll help us as a couple not go out to eat so much and instead we can cook more for each other.

I find that my main problem is one having a place to work out. Mark usually works out in his apartment which is really convenient and what I would like to do because one I don't want to be paying for a gym and two I don't want to go out of my way to work out, but when I do any work out at home I feel sick afterwards. I don't know why it happens but it's definitely not a pleasant feeling. I am hoping to give my basement a try and see if I still don't feel well afterwards. My other problem is that since my parents refuse to eat healthier I will have to buy my own groceries. Dieting is NOT CHEAP and I already constantly have no money (I always feel like at least). I've been trying to practice eating better. I typically do not eat everything on my plate, but being around Mark makes me feel really bad about that. He definitely thinks its like a carnal sin to waste food and I agree but I'm not not eating it just to waste it. I'm not eating it because I CAN'T and SHOULDN'T! Unfortunately, I'm allowing one of his problems become one of my own. I spend so much time with Mark that his dieting is not going to not affect me. I know I need to and want to diet myself, but if I don't I feel like I'm just going to get frustrated with Mark because he is going to become an annoying ass calorie counter. I think what I'm going to do is ask Mark to price how much he spends on the groceries on the meals that he purchases to make for his diet and then go from there. In the meantime, I'm going to get the ab diet work out plan and do all that I can.

I've been working on my money journal steadily. Unfortunately, my numbers aren't adding up to the numbers in my bank account even though I use that on a daily basis for reference. I'm not exactly sure what's going on there quiet yet. I'm going to give it a couple days for the bank to catch up from the holidays and then see if everything gets straightened out. Today was frustrating for me with it though. I was trying to figure it out. I asked Mark a question and he was a fucking jerk. . .we were in a car wash and he was so fucking enthralled by the stupid fucking thing he just made a quick response about something totally irrelevant and then said I don't know. It just really bugged me out because of how frustrated I already was with the whole damn thing.

Hopefully, I can get my shit together soon. Classes start soon and I've been overly relaxed this break somehow. I need to be prepared to fucking kick my final semesters ass.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Happy New Year

Want to wish my readers, so few of them, the best in the year to come. May it be filled with happiness, pleasure, and money for you as I am hoping mine will be.

This is the year I graduate from college. I can not wait! I'm also scared to death to be unprepared. It's very exciting.

I spent my New Year celebration at Gibby's a local bar with my regular group of friends plus one who was in town. We had an awesome time. I won a best dressed competition. I wore black ankle boots, leopard print tights, a black shirt, a white v neck shirt and a leather jacket. My prize was a mini-bar!!! We didn't go pick it up though because I had a stomach bug, not a hangover, and was too tired to. How did ya'll bring in the New Year? Has your new year started off well so far?

Mark and I went snowboarding a couple days ago in Winter Park. I'm still ridiculously sore. My first run was fucking flawless. I was so incredibly proud of myself. The rest of the day was a little rough because we were going down green runs and it turns out Winter Park has a lot of fucking straights and those fucking suck dick! I had to take my board off several times and hike it to the next hill. Needless to say, as a result my legs were dead fucking tired by the end of the day. I couldn't even stand up. I started crying out of frustration and pain so we took some lifts down and then took one more run down and left. I had an amazing time despite the pain and frustration. I really felt bad because I always feel like I'm taking away from Mark having a good time. I have to learn how to use my toe side so that I don't put so much weight and junk on my thighs and then I'll be able to go for much longer. Mark still said he had a lot of fun but for a while he sounded very aggravated that I restrict him so much. I told him he could go and do what he wants, but he always refuses which is so incredibly kind of him. When I get my skill level up well be fucking smashing on bitches in those mountains. The snow was perfect. It snowed all day Wednesday so there was fresh powder everywhere!! I was really good about the lifts. The only time I cried on them was when we were taking one down for lunch because we were trying to meet some friends and if we boarded down I would have taken forever and we wouldn't have been able to eat with them. I had a full on panic attack and Mark kept telling me to close my eyes. He even said he got a little scared because of the height. It's beautiful up there on those things but it's also TERRIFYING. My hands got cold just from gripping the poles so hard. My new snowboarding coat acted like a pristine beast that she is. I am definitely very happy with it. I was also very proud of myself because I only fell once while getting of the lift. When I fell I pulled Mark down with me on accident so we fell together. I was so scared he was going to be so mad at me but he just was concerned if I was hurt from him landing on me. Altogether it was a fun and successful day. Now, only to get rid of this soreness!!!