Stupid passport

the very first passport i got was when i was 13. it expired in 2007 and now since were going to Mexico I have to renew it. I filled out the application to do so and at the end of filling it out it puts the amount it will cost. . . turns out its gonna cost me 100 bucks!!!! yikes damnit guess I wont be buying a new swimsuit some shorts and sandals unless i can afford it like right before the trip. Hopefully I will be able to spare it while still paying Mark back as well as ensuring that my tax shit and tuition is taken care of. I am in quite a struggle at the time being but I know my determination and hardwork will help me overcome this shit. I am goin to call the whitelblack store tomorrow and tell them I would like to start working. Theyre bullshitting me right now and I need the money. I am going to watch slumdog millionaire then go work out.

Mexico shopping [=

This is only the beginning of my wish list for the Mexico trip. I doubt I will actually get anything off it because my loan application got denied because I don't have a cosigner. I have to apply for another one and hope to get that one. I'll know how much I'll need for sure when I register for my summer classes cuz I don't know how much the summer tuition is going to be. I'm super disappointed that I didn't get the loan but I should have expected it since it mentioned having a better chance if I had a cosigner lol. Oh well. ]=

Here We Come Mexico

Mark. Kyle. Tristan. and of course me will be in Mexico getting schwasted! May 25th through June 1st. I can't freaking wait!!!!!! The beach. . .the water. . .the sand. . .the drinks. . .the relaxation. . .the sun. . .the amazing tan. . .is ALL calling my name. [= [= [= [= [=

Here's the new pictures!!!!

The Transformation




























officially is complete.

































This was the hair cut before the color.

They're madly in love with each other.

My super hawt fedora I'm in love with.

Transformation is complete

I am officially a brunette. I haven't taken pictures yet but I will upload some later today. When I was at the salon I was really unhappy with the color because I specifically asked to not have any red tint to it and it was too light looking. Once I got home however it started to grow on me. I'm a little anxious about matching the color with my eyebrows and shit though. . .I just don't like wearing a lot of makeup and coloring my eyebrows kind of makes me feel a little clownish but I'll get use to it. Everyone who has seen it really likes it so that's good.


It's snowing again. Ugh. It better be done before tomorrow because spring break is over and I'm not walking around in the fucking cold and snow to get to class. My teacher emailed my back about the complaint and she was really nice. She was understanding of the frustration and appreciative of the complaint. She said that she will go over the formal complaint with her director as usual. We'll see how it goes though. I still have to do another project for her class so I'm going to work on that now.

The letter I sent to my proffessor

Dr. Cotton,
My name is Jody DeWolf. I am in your Women and Violence class on Tuesday's and Thursday's at 11 am to 12:15 pm. I want you to know that I am submitting a formal complaint to the director of the Criminal Justice Department about your perfomance as a professor this semester. I feel that this class has been a complete waste of my time and money. I am disappointed that a professor who seemed so passionate about encouraging students to not be lazy is such a poor professor. I am bothered by the amount of classes that you have cancelled this semester. I feel that you have very high expectations of your students that are not too difficult to meet however I do not feel that you are under the understanding that as you have expectations of your students, your students have expectations of you as well. Unfortunately, for the students in this class, you have not met these expectations in my opinion. I feel that I have not learned anything in this class seeing as though I think we have had about three weeks of actual class where you have only lectured in a few of these periods. I was very excited about taking this class and was looking forward to learning a lot and have been let down. Nothing has met the expectations that I had for this class. I understand that you have commitments however I strongly believe that if you hold to those commitments you are not holding to the commitment that you are making to the student by having this class. I find it very unfair that you would even still have the class while knowing about all the commitments that you will have during it and in turn making up for your slacking lectures in assignments out of class. As a result, I am submitting a formal complaint to the director and I will be asking for a full refund of my money. I believe that I should not receive a No Credit or Withdrawal or Failure for the class when asking for my refund because I have full intentions of completing every assignment as well as showing up for the remainder of classes. I'd like to thank you for your time in reading my complaint. If you have any questions I can be reached at this email.

Jody DeWolf

Great News|Upcoming Changes

I got the job @ White HouseBlack Market. I start at 8.25 and am being offered about 8-20 hours, depends on the time and stuff. I don't know exactly when I start because they are offering a position to another girl and she wants to train us at the same time so they are waiting to get her availibility and then we are going to go from there. I'm just so happy I'm getting more money. The pay kind of sucks but it's definitely better than nothing and I guess that's the type of pay that I should expect working at a women's clothing store. I forgot to ask how often we get paid however I'm pretty sure it's probably the usual every two weeks. I'll find out soon enough I guess. All I really need to know is that I'm getting more money damnit lol!

Also, I decided to color my hair brown. I am going for a chocolately brown look. There's a picture of what it will come close to looking like. The only difference is that it will not have any of the highlights in it. This picture is from when I came home from school on break one time and was getting blonde on top and brown on the bottom with skinny lowlights mixed in on the top however so FUCKED that shit up and colored it all brown. It eventually faded out and changed to what it was suppose to look like so I didn't kill the girl, although I came very close to doing so. A lot of people have seen this pic and have already approved. Mark thinks I am going to look super hawt and he loves the idea. Pretty much everyone but my parents are excited about the change. My dad is just never happy when I color or cut my hair, mostly because I use to have reeaaallly long hair when I was younger and I chopped it off and haven't been successful at growing it back since then lol. Tomorrow is the day I'm doing it. The appointment is at 2 with a girl named Ashton. I can not wait!!!

My other update is about this fucking ridiculous professor of mine. She is my Women and Violence professor. She has all these ridiculous expectations of her students however she seems to not realize that we have expectations of her as well and in my opinion she has completely failed them. We seriously have had like three weeks total of class this whole semester because she is ALWAYS cancelling class. I think that if she has other commitments that's fine but she should not hold any classes during a semester where it is full of other commitments because she is not upholding her part of the deal of being a teacher. I have not learned anything from that class except societies expectations of women. This class has been a complete waste of my time and money. I feel that she is being unfair by sticking to her schedule of assignments with projects that we must complete when she has made no sincere effort to really teach us anything. I'm seriously disappointed in her because I thought this class was going to be a GREAT class. I was very interested in it before it started but now I am just let down because it is nothing that I expected and haven't learned anything. I plan on sending her these exact words and also informing her that I will be submitting a formal complaint to the director of the Criminal Justice Department about her horrible performance this semester as a professor. I am deeply offended that she would take the time to go to a conference where professors met to complain about how lazy students are these days and then be LAZY HERSELF. She is a hyprocrit and if she can not uphold her end of the contract as a professor than she should not hold such expectations of her students. I'm actually considering putitng her on the spot and sending the email not only to her and the director but to the WHOLE CLASS as well. I have heard a lot of students complaining about her to other students in the class and I do not believe, unfortunately, that anyone will actually take the steps to complain but I'm not ashamed or scared to and I want anyone who feels the same way as I do to make sure they complain as well because if she does this to us who knows the amount of other classes and students that she has pulled this on and its unfair. Anyways, I'm just frustrated but I have stuff to get done today.

Be productive! yay!

Job Update | Generel Update

Unfortunately I have not heard back from that BlackWhite store manager on whether or not I got the job. Tomorrow I'm going to give her a call because I heard from both my manager at the courts and the tax agency that they heard from her and they both had all good things to say about me so hopefully she just was unable to get a hold of me because my phone broke on Wednesday when she called my references.

I applied for a loan today. Waiting to see if I qualify and for which amount I qualify for because there is a high and low amount that have different interest rates so I'm hoping for the low interest rate. I think my decision to ask for this loan was a great decision because it will help with my anxiety. It's a positive fix that I don't have to deal with until later in my life so hopefully I get the amount I need. I'm also hoping that I am really going to get financial aid because I don't want to have to use the majority of that money on school tuition and shit.

I mentioned earlier that's its been snowing hardcore and it's been really windy today. I'm hoping tomorrow that the weather isn't bad because I want to go to work and make money. I have to make sure I watch the news tomorrow morning and check for closures because I have a feeling that the courts won't be sending out any emails about any closures because they closed early today and there was no email. I guess either way I have to call and check for sure that they will be closed.

STUPID blizzard

God has saved up BUCKETS AND BUCKETS of huge amounts of snow all during winter in Colorado and he has decided to dump it all on Colorado today. He has also added a little comedy to the whole fiasco by adding winds that seem to be going like 100 mphs [lol]. Today's weather needless to say absolutely sucks. The one good thing is that I don't have to do anything today, no work or anything so I don't have to drive in this horrible weather lol. However, tomorrow I do have to work all day and I'm really hoping that this shit goes away and I don't have to deal with bullshit tomorrow.

On another note. . .I got my new phone the T Mobile Dash. I absolutely LOVE this phone. It's so much nicer than blackberry. I should have got this phone in the first place. It definitely has way more perks, including Microsoft Office Word, Excel, and PowerPoint. I'm still playing around with it and working on getting it synched to my computer so I can put music on it and stuff. All in all, I'm WAY happy with my decision to switch phones.

Loan

I'm thinking about taking out a $5000 loan. I want to use it to pay for summer school [if I don't get any financial aid of course], for the tax shit that I owe since I messed up on my W-4 for Rural Metro, and to pay some money back to my parents. The rest I will use to pay for like fall school and to help me get back up on my feet from having to pay rent and all that shit when I lived on my own. I just have this feeling that I'm never going to have any money because shit is constantly coming up. Like right now, I feel that I'm not going to be able to pay my phone bill for the month of April because I don't have any money and I have to have 240 for the tax money when we submit my taxes. I borrowed 240 from my ma that I have to pay back and then I owe them for my car insurance that they accidentally paid for a while back which I think is 260. I hate being in debt with them because they dangle it over my head and it is so fucking annoying. I have to wait and figure out how much summer classes are going to cost me [without financial aid which I'm going to do sometime this week] before I figure out how much I want to take out on this loan first though. I hate the idea of being in debt. . .I figure it definitely has to happen however I want to try and keep it at it's lowest possible point so that I'm not buried in debt and paying the shit off for years after I graduate. . .that thought alone makes me SUPER anxious! But the thought of being constantly broke and never being able to get back up on my feet again overrides that feeling of anxiousness for the debt and creates a new feeling of anxiety. [lol] don't worry I realize that I have serious problem with money and anxiety. . .I really honestly could say from a psychologists point of view that I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder. lol. . .this issue is for a totally separate blog though but I am considering asking my Abnormal Psychologist teacher about what she thinks I should do because she has her own practice so we'll see. 

Good News Version 2.0

I didn't want one HUGE LONG blog so I broke my good news up into several different blogs. Here's some more good news. On another good note. . .I think I found a new second job today. Mark and I went walking and driving around Colorado basically and I went in to the store Black & White [a store that I absolutely love and have tried to work at before but they weren't hiring] and asked if they were hiring and they were. I filled out the app and then had an interview right then and there with the manager who REALLY REALLY liked me so basically I'm just waiting for her to call my references and then she will be in contact with me in like a day or two! It pays 8.50 an hour and they have a thing where if you make a sale of a certain amount you get a certain amount of a bonus [it's not commission but sounds a lot like it they just call it a bonus program].  She has like 15-20 hrs a week available so that should be perfect with the courts! I'm really hoping to land the job because it's at a great store that I love, the people seem pretty nice already, the atmosphere was really relaxed and outgoing, and of course I could definitely use the money to help pay for this Mexico trip. I'll give you an update on how it turns out. 

Good News! Version 1.0

We found a deal on Mexico that is at an AMAZING looking hotel! The whole trip is like 850 total for 7 days. It's all inclusive meaning flight, hotel room with king size bed and 24 hour room service, pool side service, food, drinks [non-alcoholic and alcoholic], non-motorized sports, fitness center, etc! Kyle was the one who found the deal but Mark and I were looking at it today and the price has gone done to 808 so we are thinking about booking it today. We are so excited about going. We're both DYING to go on vacation. If everyone goes it'll be me, Mark, Tristan, Kyle, Jessie, and Dane! Don't worry we have heard about all the drug war stuff going on down there. I talked to a lady at my job at the courts and she has family that lives down in Mexico and she said that all the resort places down there are fine and having no serious problems, the problems arise when tourists go outside of those areas and that's where the drug problems are. I can not wait! 7 days of laying by a pool and the ocean doing absolutely nothing but pigging out, drinking, and hanging out with my friends and amazing boyfriend. Yay for tanning!!!!! Yay for laying on the beach doing nothing!!!! Yay for drinking!!!! Yay for being in Mexico!!!!! lol the list goes on and on! 

Southwestern Egg Rolls Recipe

Yummy these sound so good and I freaking love these things!

2 tablespooons vegetable oil
1 skinless boneless chicken breast half
2 tablespoons minced green onion
2 tablespoons minced red bell pepper
1/3 cup frozen kernels
1/4 cup black beans rinsed and drained
2 tablespoons frozen chopped spinach thawed and drained
1/2 tablespoon mnced fresh parsley
1/2 teaspoon ground cumin
1/2 teaspoon chili powder
1/3 teaspoon salt
1 pinch ground cayenne pepper
3/4 cup shredded Monterey Jack cheese
5 tortillas
1 quart oil for deep frying

Rub 1 tablespoon vegetable oil over chicken breast. In a medium saucepan over medium heat cook chicken approximately five mins per side until meat is no longer pink and juices run clear. Remove from heat and set aside. Heat remaining 1 tablespoon veggie oil in a medium sauce pan over medium heat. Stir in green onion and red pepper. cook 5 mins. Dice chicken and mix into pan with onion and red pepper. Mix in corn black beans, spinach, jalapeno peppers, parsley, cumin, chili powder, salt and cayene pepper. cook 5 mins til blended. Remove then stir in cheese so it melts. Wrap tortillas with a clean moist cloth. microwave on high for 1 min. Spoon even amounts of mix into each tortilla. Fold ends of tortillas then roll lightly around mix. Secure with toothpicks. Arrange on dish cover with plastic then freeze for atleast four hours. In a large deep skillet heat oil for deep frying to 375 degrees. deep fry frozen tortillas for 10 mins each. drain on towel then serve.

Consumer Alert!!! Blackberry Curve

DO NOT EVER BUY THIS FUCKING PHONE! IT IS A PIECE OF SHIT!

I have had this phone since the summer. Every month [sometimes several times a month] my phone screen goes completely white and a JVM Error appears. When this happens, I have to take 20 minutes out of my day to run an application loader that deletes all of my applications and reboots my phone then replaces the applications [BUT NOT ALL OF THEM]. When it is missing applications I then have to take them the time to go through and manually select them to be placed on there. Then when I'm done reboosting the phone I have to take the time to reset the phone to the settings that I prefer. I have to go through and activate the phone, activate my emails, and make sure that all my favs have loaded properly. This phone is a ROYAL FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!!! I have friends that have the phone as well and they have problems too to where they have to take out their battery and reset their phones everyday to ensure that they do not encounter any problems.

I am currently on the phone with T Mobile's level 2 support CUSSING THEM OUT for the piece of shit phone that they sell. They are aware of all the problems yet are still selling them?!?!?! How fucking retarded. I'm am getting a fucking different phone and I'm getting it for FUCKING FREE damnit! Even if I have to take this to the head of the goddamn company I will.

Hair Cut!

Decided on the Haiden Pantierre look a-line cut. I'm loving it! Now I just have to make an appointment hopefully for Tuesday to get the color.

Summer '09 Hairstyles

So I decide to give up on growing out my hair for the time being. I like low maintenance so I'm looking for new short hairstlyes and a new color. Help me pick one out please?! Thanks!

I really like this one but without the darkness

meh.

So just let me know what you like!

Vacation

I'm dying to go on vacation and so is Mark. We were thinking of going to Vegas with some friends this summer however we both want to be by a beach. So I am looking for deals in Mexico, Florida, and Hawaii [even though its dead expensive there he suggested it]. I'm hoping that I can find a second job pretty quickly so I can save up some money faster so that we can go sooner than what I am looking at which is June-ish. I would prefer to stay next to or very close walking distance to a beach but also near somewhere where we can be entertained in the evening and stuff so we aren't bored out of our minds. I don't really want to go to Florida because I've been there so many times before and I don't really want to be on a busy beach. I'd actually would LOVE LOVE LOVE to get like a beach condo type thing where we can walk out from our back door straight onto the beach. That's what I had in Mexico the first time I went and I fell in love with it. Unfortunately, those are very expensive type things. I've been looking at packages and supposedly there are suppose to be a lot of travel deals going on but I think what they are offering really hasn't changed, still kind of expensive. Maybe that's just me though [I see everything as expensive lol]. I invited Tristan and Kyle and Dane and Jessie because if we do a beachfront condo it'll be so much cheaper to have more people! But Tristan said no so I'm looking for two beds. Here's what I've found so far:



MEXICO!
going to travel.com
Pasoe del sol luxury 2 bed 2.5 bath
may 1 - oct 31 - 240.00 a night
240 * 5 / 4 = 300.00 per person

129 Terrasol Pool side
2 beds 2 baths
may 1 -dec 19 195.00 a night
195 * 5 / 4 = 243.75 per person

Royal Oasis 2
2 b 2 b
May 1 - Dec 19 265.00 a night
265 * 5 / 4 = 331.25 per person

I must say as a side note I have seen some of the nicest freaking places while browsing around. I would LOVE to actually just live at one of these places! They're are super nice


cozumel-villas.com
Villa June
2 b 2 b sleeps 4
1100.00 a week
1100.00 / 4 = 275.00 per person

Seaside Condo 2N
2 b 2 b sleeps 6
1190 a week
1190 / 4 = 297.50 per person

Seaside Condo 25
2 b 2 b
1190 a week
1190 / 4 = 2975.50 per person

Seaside Condo 4N
2 b 2 b
1190 a week
1190 / 4 = 297.50 per person

Casa Carlita
2 b 2 b
840 a week
840 / 4 = 210.00 per person

* so these places are AMAZING!!!! I think I'd prefer to book here so I'm stopping my search. Flights are next. What I found so far is the cheapest ticket is 388 so I gotta look somewhere else for these tickets maybe. yikes!!!!!!


Cheapest flights I found for same day arrival are on hotwire.com and expedia.com. They are both $549 a person WHEWWWWWW that's fuckin expensive. Any cheaper and you have to stay the night in your layover city and that's crazy stupid! I'm not paying for an extra fucking hotel room that's just dumb when I'm paying for a week for the condo. The ones that are same day arrival all pretty much go through ATL too. We'll see. I don't really know how much spending money to account for but just 200 alone already sends the total cost to over 1,000.

Puppy Shopping!

I really want some new clothes for him even though he hates wearing them! [lol]

I feel like SHOPPING!

I've discovered this a such a healthy way for me to "go shop". I love it.

This is super HAWT! I think Mark would like it. [=

Super cute. I'm really feeling this whole "at the sea theme" this summer.

really simple but very sexy

hehehehhehee i cant resist shopping for him

He needs a nice shirt

I never got the other sailor shirt I wanted

he needs his baseball day attire

i like camo on him

tuxedo! how cute

I need new shorts since I gained weight

Target has some really cute shoes. They always do. They're always pretty damn cheap too!

Slave Trade Video

In that class [Group Prejudice] we watched a video [I didn't catch the name of it] that was EXTREMELY interesting today. It was about a family that was very prominent a long time ago that was the LEADING family of the slave trading during the slave trade period. So huge that they actually continued trading during the time when slave trading was illegal with a political pardon from former President Thomas Jefferson as a result from their support for his campaign. The master mind behind the whole process was James DeWolf. This family that did the video has MY EXACT LAST NAME. I'm sitting in class getting ready to take notes on the movie and heard my last name and was really taken aback. I had to make sure the spelling was the same and it is. I don't know of any family members that live on the east coast but my Dad doesn't either so who knows if they are my ancestors. I plan on doing some research. Anyways. . .more on the video. James DeWolf was a Senator that began trading using rum as a resource to trade for the slaves. They got their towns people to buy shares into their adventures and they eventually established a bank, got insurance for their expeditions, and then got boats and set off to Ghana and Cuba. The family on the video goes through a lot of research where they go from Rhode Island to Connecticut to Ghana to Cuba and back. They point out that the North was more influential and had a bigger impact on the slave trade during those times then the South did. They actually controlled it more the only difference was that they didn't have huge plantantions up in the North where tons of slaves worked. Northerners bought only one or two slaves and had them work in their mansions or help build stone walls. Surprise surprise right because American History throughout all the education levels teach that basically the South controlled everything that there was to do with the slave trade and the North was really slaves saving grace. The family learned that their ancestors would go down to Ghana and Cuba and trade for PEOPLE with things like rum, sugar, clothing, or basically whatever they would take which was obvisouly next to nothing. I thought the best part of the video was where the family actually visits a slave fort. They tour the fort and learn about the procedures that went on there. They went down to the dungeons where the slaves where held in like 15 feet x 30 feet rooms shackled together in complete darkness without whatever clothing they had on their back if any. Their tour guide said it was especially terrifying for some because they were right next to the ocean so they could hear it outside and those who were from inland had no idea what the noise was. When the slaves arrived at the fort they would be baptized, their tour guide said "Saved into slavery in the name of the Lord." We did not get to see the familys tour of Cuba cuz my teacher cut the program short however I'm going to try and find it so I can watch the rest of the program.

My thoughts on this program are that it's CRAZY! First, I'm really interested in finding out if I'm related in some kind of way. Second, I found it really surprising that this family established such a huge legacy but the thing about the legends is that its not about being prominent slave traders. It's about being prominent in the community, policitians, artists, priests, etc. The whole idea of their involvement in slave trade is ignored. And today, there's seems to be an air that the family is not trying to TARNISH that name or the legacy. James DeWolf was actually the second richest man in the U.S. at one point in time during this time. They were responsible for 10,000 slaves being traded and I think it was 1.5 million of the slaves that were traded have descendants still alive. I think that is like flooring to me. I think visiting the fort was so suprising and it hit a connection with me because it's something I would like to experience. I want to see what it's like there. I wondered while watching this movie if other countries or cultures practice remembering those who were traded? Do they have certain holiday like things or special rituals or something? I was also really surprised to learn how active the North was actually involved. I think I fell my whole life for the whole idea of the North being the saving grace and I'm so happy that I had my eyes opened and remembered that the Civil War was not about slavery and freeing blacks, it was a political attempt to try and stifle the South and their ability to produce because that was their main source of income and production so the North wanted to end that and unite the countries production. Even if I'm not related to this family this movie has inspired me to do or find out about my own family history because I know ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about it and I think that everyone should learn their family tree [no matter dsyfunctional you think your family is lol]. A girl in one of my classes said she was suprise to hear that this family was basically SO SHOCKED to learn that their family was involved in slave trade and she said that she would be surprised to hear about a family that WAS NOT involved, but my response was I think they were shocked because of the fact that they were the LEADING FAMILY for the WHOLE SLAVE TRADE. That's freaking crazy. I couldn't believe how much freaking money they made. Ridiculous numbers that were big then, but even bigger these days. I was also suprised at how long the whole thing lasted. It went through 3 generations. That's a really long time!!! I never heard anything about forts on the coasts of where the slaves where being held so I was also really suprised to learn that were atleast 70 forts that countries were continously fighting for control over. Finally, during one part of the video they showed two of the slaves graves that worked for the family. It was really touching and really felt like that whole experience brought that family closer to what they're ancestors did. I overall thought this movie was absolutely amazing and they published a book that's out too that I also don't know the name of but I will probably read. When I find this things out I throw them up here so if your interested you can take a look too. I will also update you on how my expedition through my family history goes. [=

Not so sick anymore [=

I'm definitely feeling a lot better from this kidney infection. On the right road to recovery just have to stay up on my meds! I finally got the test grade back today on the test I didn't study for. I got a C which is what I expected. I'm not happy with it because I should have done better but it's better than a D or an F. I took my two tests today. I think I did pretty good on the midterm for Abnormal Psychology, however I'm not sure when we get the scores back unless maybe we email her cuz it was just done on a scantron so I'm sure it will be pretty easy for her to give it through email. The other test was open book but it was over four HUGE chapters so that made it kind of hard. I got a 12 out of 15 so that's not bad either. I turned in all my papers. I'm disappointed in myself some because I haven't really been applying myself in my Group Prejudice class like I should be so I'm definitely going to stop half assing it. The teacher was actually, suprisingly, really understanding about my abscences for the sickness and just wanted to make sure that I get what I miss. I'm going to head to another post cuz the next was is SUPER interesting and kind of long but DEFINITELY WORTH THE READ!

AIG Insurance Bull Shit

So just like everyone else I am outraged that AIG has decided to use the majority of the stimulus or bail out or whatever you call it money that they received from the government to supposedly save them on fuckin bonuses! This is bullshit because this means that you and me and every other tax payer in this country own pretty much like 80 percent of AIG and this is what they are doing with their money to "save themselves from bankrutpcy". How pathetic and money hungry can you possibly get. I can not believe people and their selfishness. I heard someone say that AIG stands for Arrogance Ignorance and Greed. I stand behind that statement a hundred percent. They supposedly are giving these bonuses out to people who are outstanding performers. FUCKING BULLSHIT! Why don't you use the money you got and do something positive with it that is going to help our economy, NOT MAKE AMERICAN POWER HOUSE COMPANIES LOOK MORE IGNORANT AND GREEDY THAN EVER! I thought that the legislation passed the part of the bill that said that the companies who received this money for a bailout COULD NOT use it to give out bonuses, but apparently the idiots in Congress let that part slip on out because they didn't think it was an important part. Yay for our retarded ass fucking government! Don't worry they haven't stopped fuckin us up the ass hole just yet. . .the rapings have yet to come.

1963-2009

Natasha Richardson, wife of Liam Neeson, mother to two sons, daughter of Vanessa Redgrave [famous actress] and granddaughter of Michael Redgrave [famous actor] died at the age of 45 today after suffering from a head injury during a skiing accident. My sincerest apologies and condolensces go out to the family for their loss. They are in my prayers. I hope that the press gives them their much needed privacy during their time of remorse. I hope that the family can remain strong. I think that skiiers need to take extra care in every move they make because I have seen accidents that have gone severly wrong where one guy stabbed himself in the back of the head with his ski when he fell faced forward and his feet came up and the ski hit him in the head and when a kid went off a jump and stabbed himself with his pole when he came down. I snowboard and I would NEVER ski because of how dangerous it freaking looks. Unfortunately for Mrs. Richardson, she was just a beginner and was taking a beginners lesson and a beginner slope. It is a very unfortunate accident. Please take head injuries very seriously because this poor woman went from just getting a headache to death in like a day I believe. Liam Neeson is one of my favorite actors and I seriously hope that he can keep his family strong during this horrible time.
RIP.

Sick =[ =[ =[ =[

Wondering where I've been? I've been laying in my bed throwing up and trying to get comfortable on one side. =[ I had a really bad kidney infection the day after Christmas. I actually had to go to the ER because I had such horrible pain in my stomach. I thought that I had appendicitis [yikes!]. Anyways, they treated me for a kidney infection and unfortunately. . .the treatment was not enough or it returned and I have had a kindney infection since. It never went away basically and every time I got sick I had the same symptoms [my back would be really sore, my neck would be sore, I would start throwing up but it would go away like the next day so I thought I just kept getting a 24 hour thing. FUCKIN' WRONG!. A couple days ago I started throwing up really bad and I vomitted all night and then had to go to work and vomitted at work all day til they let me off early, in the meantime I had fevers of 100-101. Ugh it was so horrible. I went to the doctor right after I got off and he discovered the returned kidney infection. He gave a penicillin shot and a shot for my nausea then did some blood work [which took forever because everything I ate or drank I had been throwing right back up so I had really low blood pressure and it was flowing very slowly]. He sent me home with some pills for nausea and an antibiotic for the infection and also a potassium med. Yesterday I was suppose to be feeling better however I wasn't so I had to go get some scans done on my pelvis area and kidney area and they just confirmed the infection thank God. I'm always terrified that something is going to pop up on those things.

Today is a new day! The antibiotic has finally kicked in apparently. Last night was the first night I actually slept through the night after I got this HORRIBLE fever down. I was up and about today getting homework done, putting away laudry, figuring out my classes for Summer and Fall. Looks like I should be still graduating on time, however I am making an appointment with my advisor just to confirm that I am on the right track. I'm kind of pissed because they changed the minor requirements for my Criminal Justice minor so I have all these extra hours but still have to take I think two required classes. . .stupid asses. I got a lot of stuff to do so it sucks that I got sick when I did. Tomorrow I have a midterm in my psych class and a quiz in my American Policing class. I have two papers due in my psych class and one due in my Group Prejudice class. Don't worry they're all done! YAY for not being a procrastinator on my homework otherwise I would be FUCKED! I didn't get the review for my midterm in pysch but she said it's only like 60 questions long or something so I'm kind of thinking it shouldn't be that hard if I just know my symptoms! So for the rest of the night, Mark is coming to take me to dinner since I really haven't been out at all but to the doctor and to suffer at work [lol] and then I have to study for the midterm.

I owe my ma a HUGE THANKS for taking care of me while I've been sick. I've been a horrible demanding monster and she's been amazing. She cooked and cleaned [like my room and my laundry] and watched after Maddoxx for me. She's so awesome I don't know what I would have done without her! I wish I could take care of her like that when she got sick but if I did I would definitely get it myself and then it would just be a vicious cycle! If it's not contagious though I'm definitely there for her. lol. Anyways Mark is suppose to be coming at some point in time and I need to clean up after Maddoxx and clean myself up, especially do something with this crack head hairstyle of mine [lol] before I go out in public.


[= on the road to recovery! yay

Super Lazy

I went to work this morning and then came home and went STRAIGHT TO SLEEP until like 530. I'm so freaking lazy. I started watching Hustle and Flow and then I cooked some brocolli and cheese stuffed shells with veggie marinara sauce. It was delicious. Going out to The Church tonight. One of the worst clubs in Colorado. . .disappointed because it is 18 & up however cover is free for females so that's how I got talked in to it. Drinks were suppose to be free too but my friends didn't read the sign correctly. I gotta get some shit done before I start getting ready but I'm too lazy. I definitely need to finally hang up my pictures cuz I'm tired of them being in the way and I gotta go pick up after Maddoxx's stank ass. I may consider wearing extensions again tonight so I should probably wash them too. . .I don't know we'll see how well my hair curls. Oh I decided to just use my salon gift cards from Mark on getting my hair done cuz it's going to be the most expensive thing and I can get my nails and my wax before Vegas done for cheap. I'm still going for the Kendra hair color. . .the do it yourself box we bought lightened up my hair and made my roots A LOT better but there is still a gold tint and I'm not feeling that for the summer. I bought a BANGING fedora the other day. I have pics [=. I checked my bank account just a couple mins ago. . .I SERIOUSLY need to get paid. I don't like being at this stage. It could be worse but I don't want it to get any worse. Freaking horrible. It'll be better from here on out though so no worries. Get your money up Jodii Breeze your slacking lol!

Very Interesting

Just read straight through, and you'll get the point. 

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1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world. 

2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners. 

3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America. 

4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize. 

5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winner for best actor and actress. 

6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners. 


How did you do? 


The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners . 




Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one: 

1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school. 

2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time. 

3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile. 

4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special. 

5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with. 


Easier? 


The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Don't fool yourself into thinking that becoming POPULAR or even FAMOUS will make a difference.

Sure, achieve greatness, by all means! I'm not trying to stop you.. just make sure you don't forget those who helped you get there. & more importantly, try to make the same impact on other ppls lives. No one's immortal, but your memory could very well be. Especially when you make a difference in someone's life.

Blackout Drunk

Ughhhhh Mark and I and our friend Natasha got drunk last night. We played endless rounds of quarters and the ABC's of sex and got WASTED! Mark and I don't even really remember much of anything that happened. . .we woke up this morning at like 7 am and were both like what happened?! We definitely don't remember going to bed at all. I took my extensions out at some point in the night as well. Fun times except we're both hungover today. I don't know what the hell I was thinking last night drinking vodka. . .I NEVER drink vodka because it equals an automatic hangover for me no matter what, even if its only one drink. EW. My drink of choice is gin and juice with oj and cranberry juice and I should have stuck to my regular. We went to I Hop this morning and we both feel a little better but not much. I didn't really eat too much cuz I was scared of throwing up. I was suppose to go to class today was looking forward to finally getting the score on my test back but I made the ultimate decision to just not go. It started out as I'm not going to my first class and then my second class is cancelled so I would only have my afternoon classes but then one of them is kind of pointless and then I decided to not waste gas and time just going down there for one class. Tomorrow we are suppose to go to The Church night club. I hate that place but 21 and up females get in and drink for free so I decided to get sucked into going. I need a freaking hair cut. . .at least a trim. My bangs are super freakishly long and they're driving me nuts. Monday I gotta look at what classes are going to be available for me to take during the summer. Hopefully they offer classes that I need so I can make sure that I am going to graduate on time. I gotta apply for financial aid and a loan for that shit too. UGH! I hate doing that stuff. During the summer I'm gonna take the time to apply for some scholarships because I don't want to come out of school with too much debt you know. That's not gonna with any of my anxiety. Anyways. . .I'm going to do some job searching yay =|

electroshock.

Super productive today YAY! I placed a couple ads for some stuff I'm selling on craigslist that includes a spanish book, a verizon wireless Envy phone package with phone, carrier, car charger, wall adapter, and some ipod charger accessories. I also have a couple college team basketballs for sale. . .NC Kentucky I think and the other team I don't recognize the mascot. Good balls though! I did some homework and I'm proud to say that I am very much caught up on everything. I have one more paper to write for my Group Prejudice class. I am doing it on an article about Isn't Racism Only For Whites or something like that for the title and I'm sure it addresses how not only whites are racist. Atleast that's what I'm hoping for. All I have to do is summarize the article and give my opinion including some of the other articles we have read in class and discussions and notes from class. Mark and I went shopping today. He got some polos and some new bed sheets [which he said he wanted me to help pick because I tend to use them a lot HOW CUTE [= ]. Anyways, all I have left on my list to do today is wash my extensions, hang up pictures, and get wasted with my amazing man. I read a very interesting blog today about not following any rules for relationships. I think he made some absolutely great and important points. Anyways, it just made me grateful for where I am with my relationship and how happy I am. [=

Hope yall had a great day!

blackPURPLEsilver

If you know me you know I LOVE baseball. Preseason started a couple weekends ago and I haven't had much time to watch any of the games but I hopefully there will be some on tomorrow [=! Anyways the new color scheme is purple black and silver for THE ROCKIES one of my fav baseball teams. Not my number one but definitely up there in the top three. I also put up a new playlist so I hope you enjoy that [=


That's all for today. I'm quite tired.

Apparently. . .

I've been living under a rock and for some reason although I LOVE Jennifer Hudson I never got her cd. . .or even listened to the whole thing. Yeah, yeah I don't know where I've been. . .anyways it's great. I really like the song "If This Isn't Love". Here's the lyrics [;


[Verse 1:]I'm calling this fone up just keep tellin how much
I really love him cause he's everything I want
He listens to me, cares for me
So why'd you leaving me?
God sent me an angel up from above
To love me for life
Things would be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe and say
[Chorus:]If This Isn't Love
See what it is, is like I'd be dreaming and just playin crazy
If this isn't loveSee what it is, cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn't love
L-o-v-e what is (in) me?
L-o-v-e
Oh...If this isn't love [x2]
[Verse 2:]I'm selfish cause I don't wanna share
When nobody not even knows
People that came before me
But see I ever believe.
God sent me an angel up from above
To love me for life
Things would be perfect
Only because it's the only way[ If This Isn't Love]
I can describe and say
[Chorus:]
So if you got real love
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
The kind of love that beats
Wild like a club
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up, if this isn't love
Cause I know I ain't crazy
I know I ain't trippin
I know I ain't sleepin
I know that it's love
See me with my hands up
If you think I'm dreamin
I know I ain't dreamin
Cause this reason maybe
And I know what is love
If this isn't love...[Chorus: till end]

Music

I just realized. . .I haven't got any new music AT ALL since Feb 23. . .sad how lazy and tired being sick makes you. I feel deprived. It's definitely time for a session however. . .I don't have my router connected here so my internet connection sucks so I'm kind of pissed about that. For now I'm just making a huge list of songs that I want to listen to and make sure that I like and then get.

Neyo-love
Keith Stewart-get away
Keri Hilson- make love, knock you down, get your money up
Young Berg - let you go
Joe - coulda be the 1, do it all
Jay Sean- Still Love you
J Holiday- New Album "Round Two" [one of my fav artists!]
Kanye West - doing girls wrong, playa playa
Omarion - can you keep a secret, comfort
Joe Young - we alright
Pleasure P - you'll never know
Nelly Furtado - gotta work
Sean Garrett - feeling on my, I know bout you
Frankie J - let it go
Kat de Luna - put it on
Bone Thugs - the game ain't ready
John Legend - lay your head down
TI - boo
Ludacris - grizzly, come w me
Rascal Flats - Here Comes Goodbye
30h3 - old album
Pink - sober
LMFAO - I'm in Miami
Toby Keith - god love her




There will be more added however my comp is fucking up so I need to reboot

Stupid class

I can't stand when teachers take FOREVER to return tests so that we can see our scores. On Thursday, I will have had to wait two weeks to figure out what my score was on our first exam in my Group Prejudice class. So frustrating. This teacher is super rude to us too. We were in discussion groups today and people were trying to finish up their sentence and she kept telling him to shut up. I was like wow that's extremely rude can he finish what he is saying? And this girl next to me was completely shocked, like jaw dropped laughed in astonishment that I said something like that to the teacher. I told her "I'm a little outspoken" and laughed. She agreed with me though. That class would be way more interesting if I had it earlier in the day I think because by that time of day I'm DYING to be home. . .I'm tired, hungry, and bored so I have a hard time getting involved most days. Because of this. . .I have decided that I am going to take earlier classes next semester. . .get my day over with sooner so I don't have to be at school til 345 in the afternoon and then not get home til 5. Hopefully this plan doesn't backfire and I end up never going to my early class because I'm too lazy to get up. I do good on days that I have to go to the courts and I'll be getting up around the same time for class so I should be fine though. Anyways I was just ranting and raving about lazy teachers who take forever to grade and return tests.

Some More "shopping"

I lurve animal prints
super hawt cuz it has pockets [=

"Shopping"

super hawt

I love this look

these come in cheetah print too. super hawt

$88